Sorry, no pictures today, but I have been thinking lately about how much becoming a mother has made me grow up and change and see the world in a whole new way. I think most all of you know by now that baby #2 is on its way! We are so excited and really we couldn't be happier. I am getting close to 15 weeks along and it has been a rough road, but I can see the end of my so called "morning" sickness. This pregnancy has been so different from Maya's already I am amazed. With maya even though I threw up a lot, if I would eat, generally I felt a little better.
With baby #2 as soon as sickness kicked in, I was on the couch, couldn't get off, maya was getting awful diaper rashes cause I wasn't changing her often enough (I would seriously forget) I couldn't eat ANYTHING, and on top of that....I couldn't even DRINK anything. I lost almost 5 lbs that first week and had to get some medicine. It helped quite a bit....still plenty sick, but I didn't feel like I was dying. :) This leads me to wonder if its a boy; and if it is I would be so excited. I used to think I could never have a boy because I wouldn't know what to do with him-but after having a way emotional girl (she takes after me) I am ready to have a boy! :)
So this doesn't turn into a novel I will bullet point the rest of my thoughts.
- I can never even TRY to judge people for how many kids they have or dont have. You seriously never know how hard and long it takes them to get pregnant, how hard their pregnancy's are, how hard their births are, or emotionally how they handle the process.
- It is harder than you think it is going to be.
- You are all of a sudden an immediate member of the "anyone who has ever had a kid club" being able to relate with people from age 18 to 80.
- Being able to go to the bathroom by yourself is now considered a luxury.
- Expect to cry at the oddest things-I knew I was pregnant the first time when I cried during the CMA awards after Taylor Swift won artist of the year...(i didn't even know who she was, she was crying-so I cried)
- You see a side of your husband you never saw before. Maya has Ryan wrapped around her little finger and it is very obvious. She takes full advantage of it.
- There are times in your life when it gets so difficult and all you can do is go into "survival mode" and your house is just a mess...and likely so are you.
- You have bad associations with saltines or certain foods that you ate every day for months because you couldn't eat anything else.
- No one knows what its like to have a colicky baby until they have one themselves. Believe me....its fun. ;) Almost 9 months worth of fun.
- You will get advice from everyone, but really just do what you want...you are the one who is going to have to live with the consequences if you're doing something wrong. Its a learning process!
- You will make mistakes and your kid will have some bad habits as a result of YOUR parenting. I found that out when my daughter still wasn't sleeping through the night at 18 months. Yeah, not going to do the same things with baby #2. I have heard great stuff about a book called "baby wise" Anyone read it?
- You grow a heart. You think you had one before...just wait.
- Jumping on the trampoline brings consequences it didn't before.
- You eventually stop talking like an educated adult and start calling bananas "nana's", or dogs "ruf ruf's"
- You can't put a price on naps. They are your life saver.
- You realize that you aren't as patient as you once thought you were.
- I have the best family and husband in the world and they have helped sooo much with this pregnancy.
- Your 2nd pregnancy will be a whole new thing cause you now have a demanding toddler who doesn't get that you are struggling. Ex: I was throwing up and crying in the living room when I was about 7 weeks along. Maya came up to me and said, "mama, ky-ing?" I said, "yes, mamas crying" She looked at me for a second and said, "Mama I hungee" (hungry) Since I was obviously BUSY at the moment, I didn't do anything for her, so in anger she started signing "hungry" and "eat" to me, then climbed in her chair and started yelling "hungee!!!" "eat!" "hungee mama!" Yeah, she doesn't get it yet. :)
- Sometimes the best thing is being able to snuggle with your hubby and just cry.
- Going through hard things makes you appreciate what you have even more.
- Being a mother is the best thing in the world and I love what its done to me as a person, I may be crazier, more emotional, and sometimes irrational after a long day, but I love my family more than anything. I will post some preggo pics when I get a bit bigger. If you made it through all this...wow. this ended up longer than I expected.
